Happy Bday Dear !!

Last week was my friends birthday , one of the closest , who shares almost everything . As usual people wished him , he got gifts ,cake cutting , friends ko party bhi di .
Phir bhi kuch kami si mehsus ho rahi thi was his exact words that evening .There was something missing . Why was this different if you ask me then nothing much only that a person used to call him sharp at 12 'o clk , would fight if somebody else wished him before her .A gift not very costly but would make him very happy .Par aaj wo nahi hain uske pas . She is not there to pamper him , fight with him , tease him ...
He often ask this question to himself , why he need some one in his life .Now he have freedom ,no restrictions ,just   like khula sandh .. no one going to get angry if he sleep before 12 o clk or if  he go out with his friend(most of the times with me :) ) and stay late without calling her . No fights with his  parents over the issue of marriage . No one in the society is going to point a finger at him . If there are so many  (+)ves out of being single then why he still feel the emptiness . Why he cry when he watches  a romantic movie .Why he still wakes up in the night and check for missed calls . Why he  crave for her so much .He  doesn't have the patience to deal with a new relation but still some where in his heart he wants it . He wants it badly . May be its just the hormones playing its part . May be seeing others getting settled .He feels that he has missed something big in his life .

This word LOVE  confuses me a lot . It gives a lot of pain , a bit of happiness but still every body wants it. May be our mind is designed insanely to crave for it .
ps: I feel pity on my friend . Its his feeling and and my words .  So all people who still have their loved  ones beside you holding ur hands at every moment of ur life cherish it because it feels much more worse than what i have written .Hope i never have to through what my dearest friend went through .

Who's Right ?

People tend to evaluate themselves .
Every time they tend to judge themselves even though you might not be noticing .
We have this inherent habit of judging our past decisions ,what we did was right or wrong .
We want somebody to judge us . That's why most of us believe in God .
The very meaning of God is someone who's watching us from above and being impartial he/she will tell us
about the things we did were right or wrong .
We want to be judged .That's why majority of us are aesthetic  .
Confident people are 80% sure about their decisions but still 20% thinks the other way .
Now coming back to the original topic who's right ?
I have been bugged by this questions ever since i don't since when .
If everybody wants themselves to be judged so whom should i believe .
If someone tells me that my decision is wrong then on what basis should i it think as wrong or right
just that he /she gives some valid points to dismiss my points . No way .
If we take the above point then everybody who thinks that their decisions are right might be wrong
and those whom we think are wrong may be right .
Then again another thing comes to my mind as to who's Good and who's Evil .
Just that some section of society thinks that a person is evil should not be a valid basis for declaring him/her
as Evil .No way .
My blog confuses me more as i am still confused as to whats right and whats wrong .
I wrote this to clarify myself as to who's right and who's wrong .
I have concluded to myself that if others tell me that your decisions are wrong  i would say ,Better mind your own business ,I am free to make my own decisions . I will do whats seems right to me . You are no God to tell me that i am wrong or right .
I am free and i make my own decisions .
Cheers to freedom .
:-)
Sunny Shekhar